New year, New start!

I have no idea where to start. Things have gotten so busy that i really haven't had time to sit and dwell on how bad last year was and to be honest, I don't want to. I wanted the year to be over so I could put it behind me and move forward.




Christmas day we the girls opened presents then we went to eat and I slept most of the day away, mostly because i didn't want to even be. I ended the night at a friends house. New years eve i rang the new year in with my best buddy and a couple more friends then went home and slept in. I got to spend some time with my friend that morning then the rest of the day with my babies.







The new year has proved to be eventful and so far a great one. We added a new furry, yet slightly less furry, member to the family January 9th. He has been such a joy and both the girls love him to death. Ask'Em is so funny and his personalty is just great. Emma picked out his name and loves when people ask her what his name is. She gets a kick out of it every time. He was a rescue and was very scared of everything but he is adjusted just fine now and likes to beat up on Roxie of all dogs lol.





I got to go with Emma on her first field trip of the year on the 26th. It was to the Galveston Children's museum. She loved it and we had tons of fun. We had a pick nick out on the grass and Emma and I wrestled after we finished eating. then we got back to school and i took her out early so we could spend the rest of the day together. I love our one on one time together. We talk about daddy allot and what we think daddy would say or do at any given moment. I want to keep him alive in her as long as i can.

On the 27th Emma and I started a Grieve support group program at Bo's Place. Emma really likes it and she looks forward to it every week. I on the other hand don't really care for it. I much rather one on one therapy but whatever my baby girl wants is what she gets. I go every other Tuesday so i don't have to miss my boot camp class too often. So far it has really helped with Emma and let her get out her feelings. I'm so glad one of my fellow widows told me about it.

The 31st was a busy day with a photo shoot that morning and a birthday party that evening. A friend of mine was gracious enough to take us out and get some beautiful pictures of my babies. Our first pictures of the year and they are absolutely beautiful! Emma loved being able to change several times and take pictures. I swear if she was a little calmer she could be a model. she just wanted to run around and play lol. TK did fantastic for a 4 month old. The pictures will be forever cherished.

February was little tough on us but we trudged threw. Last year was Emma's first and might be the last year she went to the Father Daughter dance. When the flyer went out this year i was worried how it would affect her. My uncle and step dad both offered to take her but i told her she didn't have to go and if she didn't want to I would take her to do something special just her and me. I gave her a week to decide and she decided to spend the day with me. I ended up taking her to the American girl store and having lunch with her. We pretty much spent the whole day together and had a blast. She got a doll and a few matching outfits.

The weekend of Valentines day wasn't so hard for me. I went out of town with a friend and drank the day away at Mardi Gras and partied on Bourbon St. I had a great weekend and could care less that I was single for the 14th. Emma on the other hand had fun at her grandmothers but it bothered her. Last year Daddy surprised her by having all her gifts in the car that morning so on her way to school she got her big teddy bear, chocolate, flowers, balloons and what not. This year I gave her some hello kitty stickers. I think she was more upset that daddy didn't get her anything and not the fact that i didn't get her allot. My mom ended up buying her a bouquet of roses to brighten up her day. I didn't mean to upset her but i just really didn't want anything to do with the valentines day stuff for fear of being upset.


On the 22nd My sister arranged for my family to all go to the Museum and the Butterfly Exhibit. It was so nice to spend a day with the family. My mom even left her neck of the woods to join us for the day. We got there a little early so Shawn, Emma, TK and I walked around in the flower garden across the street and Emma did a mean hand stand in front of the pond. The museum was nice and they had an Egyptian exhibit that freaked Emma out a bit due to the Mummies laying around everywhere. She kept saying they were going to get up and eat us all. LOL My silly girl. After the museum we went to the butterfly exhibit and played with the butterflies. All the colors really got TK's attention. Emma and I kept talking about how the last time we were in a butterfly exhibit all the butterflies loved Daddy. We left to eat and had some yummy pizza at Franks then dessert at The Chocolate Bar. It was a great family day.

This past weekend was Dink's Birthday and Emma wanted to have a birthday party for her daddy so that is exactly what we did. I went out and bought balloons a cake and ice cream. Emma wanted a picture of her daddy on the cake and she wanted all the decorations in orange and blue. We had a 30 balloon, balloon release and i had markers so everyone could write a little something to Dink. The day in all was a good day. our playground in the back had just been finished so the kids had a blast on that and everyone really loved being able to send Dink a little note. I woke up crying first thing that morning because i knew exactly what day it was but most of the day i was just smiles. I know Dink would have wanted me to be happy so i got out the tears and had a good day after that. I ended up going out that evening with some friends then we all went back to the house and had a little more fun. I had a nice night and enjoyed myself very much.




Time seams like its flying by so quickly now days. With Emma in Karate, Softball, and gymnastics and me trying to keep up with the gym and Boot camp and taking on another kid, things are so hectic that i hardly have time to sit down. Staying busy helps keep my mind focused. I have even found time to get out and enjoy myself and meet some new people. I want to be around people that make me happy so that's what i do. I am so thankful for all the new people in my life weather it be taking care of the girls for me, running Emma round to her extras so i can go to boot camp, or just making me smile and feel good about myself like I did before. I am feeling less sad about everything and more great full to have had the people i've lost in my life.