1144 Days

As of today (May 3, 2016)  I have gone 2 years without my husband, father of my children, shoulder to cry on, person to lean on, and best friend. That's 730 days Emma has had to go without her daddy, hero, buddy, and biggest fan. Not a day goes by that we don't miss him.

Took this pic of TK May 3, 2016.

I tried updating this twice so far. Make that 3 times. I have logged in threw the app on my phone and now on the web browser. And that's just today. I've been trying to update my blog for the last year and some change. I was kinda getting the feeling like it wasn't meant to be. But I'm gonna try and make it work. So far I've hit the save button 5 times so I hope it works lol. I've been trying to update throughout the year like on Father's Day and Dinks birthday, and the anniversary of this passing. This year makes 3 years.

Last year the anniversary wasn't as hard as this year. I don't even think I did anything that day. But this year sucked. Everything reminded me of Dink. I didn't tell the girls what day it was or why I was so sad. I was pretty down the whole week though. Luckily I had Darius there to pick up the slack. He did his best to make me feel better and he took care of the girls while I laid in bed. I was pretty useless. 

It's very true what they say, it comes in waves. Some days it's calm and your floating with a drink in your hand and other days your just struggling to keep from drowning.